Lisa Ray

The Yellow Diaries

MM5K Walk

Hello Yellow Diarists:

I leave this Yellow ‘Post it’ on our Communal Corkboard to let you know I’m travelling out of Toronto to Vermont for a retreat which will be led by my friend Laura Simms. This is my week off chemo and I’m running for the hills. Laura is an entrancing professional story teller and humanitarian and has the eyes of a Devi. I will blog from Vermont. I have drafts.

Now I only have time for a short espresso blog. Ristretto?

I’m off steroids and I need to sleep. I forgot that’s what the night is for.

Just returned from my friend Joshua Bell’s concert in Toronto tonight feeling many things at once. Spilled veins. Heart tips. Tiny wings alive on the surface. Music opens the door of feeling in me. I used to spend hours listening to Wong Kar Wai soundtracks. There’s a line in ‘In the Mood for Love’: ‘at least she was always the heroine of her story’. Yup, that was me.

Then came Goldfrapp.

Tonight was surrender to a violin. If you have seen one of Joshua’s concerts you will know what I mean. If not, see him perform. I will not try to explain. I am overjoyed we have this in the world: art, music, FOOD, transcendence of words, time, logic…

Taken a milli-second before they asked you to turn off recording devices...and 5 days after 'Cooking with Stella' was screened at the Thomson Hall

Taken a milli-second before they asked you to turn off recording devices...and 5 days after 'Cooking with Stella' was screened at the Thomson Hall

Spent a long day on pause in the hospital. Next time I’ll bring my scrabble board or begin a spontaneous game of Bingo in the waiting room. After Noni left, Dad and I shared the same hunting magazine, ‘Ontario Out of Doors’, circa 2006. I learned a lot about cross bows. I’m not complaining just trying to inject some yellow into the pauses.

Dr Galal handed me my latest reports with that gleam in his eye.

Almost FULL REMISSION.

Joytear.

We’re not in the FR Club yet, but I’m filling out all the preliminary forms.

Then I went up to the 18th floor to get my eyes checked. My left eye was swollen as a baby slug when I woke the day after the ‘Stella’ premiere. Turned out to be a sty. My immunity is low, so the infection has travelled to my other eye now. Seema has dinner with me before leaving for Sudbury and then India one evening and tells me to wash my eye with warm water and salt. She has seen technicians on film sets in India do this. And then go back to squatting with lights in precarious places. I think I can be all enigmatic and wear shades until my eye clears up and I grow a hump on my back to replace this latest alteration to my appearance.

We have a public screening for ‘Cooking With Stella’ on the 18th of September. I arrive in Paris Hilton sized sunglasses and yellow sneakers. I feel strange. I already feel like I’m having an out of body experience most of the time due to the medication I’m on which is plucking at my nerves. But now I’m dressing the part.

Deepa will rescue me. I unveil my eyes before we go into the theatre for the question and answer session.

‘I’ve got an eye infection. Shall I wear my reading glasses?’

‘Put your shades back on.’

Dilip dedicated the public screening to me. I am butter. With Canola oil. The Spreadable kind. I am without words in front of this onslaught of support and love. I”m already inept in social situations. I think it best I remain mute.

but don’t block the exit.

Can there be a thing as too much love? I think not! Unless it prevents you from learning to tie your own laces.

I want to thank the crew at ‘Psych’ for the laughs and for helping me Stay Encouraged.

Seema and Shriya...enroute to Roy Thomson Hall

Seema and Shriya...enroute to Roy Thomson Hall

Michelle Krall Wigmore and Sindi Hawkins for their gladiator spirits and guidance.

Don Mackellar for sharing the rickshaw. Thanks for the lift- in every way.

Don and I getting a lift in the rickshaw...except you can't see it so trust me. buh

Don and I getting a lift in the rickshaw...except you can't see it so trust me. buh

Dilip, Deepa, David for that family feeling. And teaching me to fight for what feels right.

Garden Sarees and Shilpa Shah for establishing a supportive connection that transcends fads and fashions.

Tina and Noni: for always prospecting with me for lightness.

And  Yellow Diarists everywhere. You move marrow and help me prospect my inside.

Before leaving tomorrow morning and before my next post, there’s this;

I’m doing the 5K walk for Princess Margaret on October 18th. Shane Saunderson (http://www.prairiepedal.comcycled 3500 km across Canada to raise $35,000 for Myeloma research. Together we are Team Myeloma. I’m thinking I gotta whip it. If Shane can do this and Bobcat can cycle 800 km in 4 days for Cancer, well, a 5k walk in Toronto is just a warm up.

I am already grateful for your support and would be grateful for your sponsorship.

So this is my warm up 5K for Princess Margaret and Myeloma. I know this isn’t the best of times to hit you up but whatever you can contribute is appreciated: including goodwill. No gauge on a webpage for that but we feel it. Contribute and get a free blog. Ha!

More research translates into more options in treatment which translates into a longer lifespan for members of the Multiple Myeloma Club. And then chances are increased we can find a cure in this lifetime.

Here’s the links:

Personal Donation Page:

http://pmhf3.akaraisin.com/Pledge/Participant/Home.aspx?seid=2489&pid=172578&mid=9

And

Team Myeloma Canada:

http://pmhf3.akaraisin.com/t/myelomacanada.aspx

Thank you. For the tender space and glueing with me for a while. Thanks for walking with me.

This is from Susan Sontag’s  ’Illness as Metaphor’. Mind tickle;

‘Illness is the night-side of life, a more onerous citizenship. Everyone who is born holds a dual citizenship, in the kingdom of the well and in the kingdom of the sick. Although we all prefer to use only the good passport, sooner or later each of us is obliged, at least for a spell, to identify ourselves as citizens of that other place.’

Next post: Beluga whales and deer that pinch. And insurance. Buh.

next up: Everyone Loves Marineland!

next up: Everyone Loves Marineland!

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  1. < ![CDATA[Love you, Lisa!!]]>

  2. < ![CDATA[Hi Lisa,

    Hope you are enjoying Vermont...

    This is Harneet Singh, from The Indian Express. I wanted to speak to you regarding a story... Please let me know how to go about it. If there is a phone number or an email id that you can share...

    My email is harneet29@gmail.com.

    Will be great if you can let me know…

    Take care,

    Harneet]]>

  3. < ![CDATA[Wow..you are an inspiration..a friend wrote about you in her blog...all the best]]>

  4. < ![CDATA[A retreat sounds like fun. With the doctor's good report and your joyful state of mind, retreats will never look the same again. Enjoy it all!]]>

  5. < ![CDATA[Lisa

    Alone with my white computer , an my little cup of coffe(ristrestto lol), my son is at school and my husband so far away........(For his work), i read your writing and you make my day, you so far away too, 6000 km an it's like if you were near me!
    Take care Lisa and have a good time in Vermont!
    France love you
    Kisses]]>

  6. < ![CDATA[A world without music is not worth imagining. I hope you enjoy the MM walk and they turn on the weather for you!

    Take care
    Naomi]]>

  7. < ![CDATA[OK, Lisa, i'm going to sleep now (3 a.m. here in Argentina) and I work early in the morning, but later I'll read the new post.
    Take care and remember: we love you so much. It´s an honour for me that you are reading my words. I never imagine a contact with you. Still "virtual".
    I pray everyday for you.
    A lot of kisses, and take care!!!
    FFF!!!!
    Ximena ( ximeavila78@hotmail.com )]]>

  8. < ![CDATA[Almost FULL REMISSION? Oh, oh, I'm going to sleep very very happy!!! Yes, I read a little now. I couldn't resist.
    Fight!!!!!!!!!!!!
    Kisses, and more kisses, warrior!!!]]>

  9. < ![CDATA[Hey there gal,

    Good to hear your 'voice' - tis is going to b a short note - just to say, rest well, sleep well and dont think about anything.

    Have a good retreat @ Vermont ...and I will read ur blog tonite when I am back home and will come back with a more in-depth reply :D - lol, compared to the rest of your fans here...mine is just simple...anyway...take care

    BB, BG, B Smiling Always
    MF]]>

  10. < ![CDATA[Safe trip and be well.
    K]]>

  11. < ![CDATA["Almost FULL REMISSION." your words and the doctor's words... :)

    The sound of a violin always stirring some thing above and beyond...you gotta just give in it! No another word!

    Enjoy your retreat in Vermont ... :)

    BTW Wong Kar Wai's ‘In the Mood for Love’: one of my favorite movies and very talented directors.]]>

  12. < ![CDATA[lisa, you are in my thoughts. very pleased to read the 'almost full remission' part. i met you for a brief moment at a film premiere. i would love to say a million things but i'm sure you have already heard them all. simply, love.]]>

  13. < ![CDATA[Hi, I want to say to you that God is always with us to help us fight against all the problems that we could have, lay on him, you will find a lot of peace.
    I don´t know on what you believe, but really i´m sure that he is hugging you, he never leave us, he is in everything, in the air, in the breathe, in the day, night, in the beat of the hart.

    Read Corintios chapter 13,the most old book of history the Byble, you will find all the answers, but i just haven´t understand it all, it´s too much for me.

    have a good day or night!!!! i don´t know the hours so...
    mmm have a nice.... it´s better to say hour, what ever hour it is.........]]>

  14. < ![CDATA[Lisa,
    You know what?? everytime when I read you stuff,I see something in your post which is you are stronger than you think. Keep up good work. And have fun with MM walk. See you next time. Love you

    PS. can't wait to read your next post.
    T....]]>

  15. < ![CDATA[it's great to know you are almost FULL REMISSION.
    have a good retreat in Vermont.]]>

  16. < ![CDATA[Dear Lisa, I´m glad that you continue writing.Here in Mazatlan is 12 at night, gladly read your blog.
    Yesterday thought he liked to smooth music and now you say.
    Everything will bee fine dear Lisa. You will achieve what your crave.today i´m encouraged,motivated, confident.
    Thanks for teaching me to appreciate life.
    I got to sleep, because tomorrow I expect 30 childrens
    mischievaus and curious, I´m a kindergarter teacher and I
    love this job.
    best wishes to you and your family ,sure everything will be
    fine.........
    saludos desde mazatlan mexico*******************]]>

  17. < ![CDATA[Another Day

    Yellolution
    “The Mellow Diaries”

    Hey LR,

    Hmmm….music!
    Music….makes the people, come together!
    Music…mix the bourgeoisie and the rebel!

    I connect with your passion for music so much…I feel it’s a gift to able to “make” music…I mean, HOW do they do it?? So unfortunate we don’t have that many Live concerts in India as the ravenously passionate and thirsty lot of us would like to consume! :)

    Though, I do admit that the NCPA (National Centre for Performing Arts) in Mumbai does its fair bit to bring down some remarkable talent.
    The piano, the violin...the works….amazing. Great to know you enjoyed your evening at Joshua’s concert.

    And like wowww! A retreat at Vermont sounds verrryyy nice! Bugger that sty woman, and surrender to surreal nothingness…. I love that thing Calvin says (Calvin and Hobbes by Watterson)…that “its so much fun when doing nothing keeps you busy all the time”! :) Get busy! ;-)

    Reports by Doc Galal! Bimaari almost Halal! :) (Sheeee, that was really bad, sorry!) But this LR, should make you wanna fly, coz its victory of the eternal human warrior against the inevitable infection that is….the World Outside of Us.

    Move over sty, I’m arriving in Sty(le)! I recommend you stand in front of a mirror and sing this song to it: Its one of my teen-year favourites by Modjo called “Lady”: (lyrics slightly amended)

    Lady…hear me tonight,
    Coz my feeling, is just so right,
    I see hope for the first time
    ….and I know that it’s true,
    I can tell by the look in your eyes!!!

    It’s a groovy number, try singing it to the actual tune :)
    http://bit.ly/3jafxZ

    So finally…signing off…with yet another post in
    The Mellow Diaries – an ode to the YELLOLUTION that you never knew you’d begun, where:

    • I love that you love being loved but yet, naturally so…still ask if there’s a thing as “too much love”…humbling no!

    • I love that I can actually recommend that you sing to your sty and ask it to bugger off!

    • I love that you treat your 5K walk as a “warm up” when it actually has the power to heat a thousand lamps of hope for people who think they’ll be down and out with an ailment like that!

    • I love that you’re comfortable with using the citizenship, atleast for a spell, of that “other place”….which now means, you’ll be done with it…and will be left with only redeeming your points in the Kingdom of the Well :)

    • I love that you like being glued to us too!! I mean, we’re technically nobody’s…trying their hand at being somebodys…on a mass forum for anybody’s…that’s supposed to be seemingly disconnected, yet binds us tight enough to want to (compulsively) write, share, respond and react. [u even wanna write in to us from your retreat!:)]

    This LR, is for how you Mellowed the apprehensions…!]]>

  18. < ![CDATA[Hey Beautiful,

    Quote of the day:

    Life is not measured by
    the number of breaths we take,
    But by the moments
    that take our breath away.

    And Joshua Bell certainly does that! Glad you enjoyed the concert!

    Have a great time on your retreat in Vermont.

    Fiducia e Credere

    Lotsa love,
    P

    PS: I just stopped taking steroids myself and it's 3AM and I'm still awake.....guess I'm stuck in some strange sleep cycle]]>

  19. < ![CDATA[My dear Lisa,

    Glad to read your "short" post.
    The best news I've ever read recently that you are almost in full remission.
    I am really glad that after this busy week you can travel to Vermont for retreat. Enjoy your time there, don't deal with anything except yourself!
    If you feel you can share your stories and feelings with us, please do it. But only after having rest, it is the most important for you now.
    We will be always here for you to read, support and love.
    I'd like to believe that we are soulmates already.

    Sweet Dreams and safe trip for tomorrow!
    with hugs
    Kati from Hungary]]>

  20. < ![CDATA[Dear miss,

    Last night I dreamt you..
    You were smiling, very happy and proud.
    And that is what you are going to be when
    you sit in that chair of yours and think back
    on these days. You will be one of the proudest
    person who fought.

    Thank you for being stronger, day by day.
    I love the way you're breaking this taboo and turn
    it into a must-need subject.

    I'm also glad that you get the family feeling through
    friend. That's one of the biggest cure these days you know,
    so I read. There are an amount of people who wish
    they could say they are getting that feeling too.

    Stay strong Miss! I have the fullest trust on you.
    Continue doing the fun things you are doing now:
    Life is what happens to you while you're busy making
    other plans..

    I wish I could be there with you and hold your
    hand during this proces. To let you know it's ok..
    I can't but some day I will.
    And if you ever feel the need to lose courage,
    stop that feeling of need and think of these words:
    'Do all the good you can, by all the means you can,
    in all the ways you can, in all the places you can,
    to all the people you can, at all the time you can,
    as long as ever you can..

    I pray for you every day and if it was possible, I would
    give you my life..

    Love,
    Esha Toekoen
    The Netherlands]]>

  21. < ![CDATA[dear lisa,

    enjoy your retreat and keep moving forward.

    you like wong kar wei. i'm also a big fan of his movies, esp. "in the mood for love". and i love this soundtrack. it's a kind of heartbreaking, making the listener feel about this love which is never really fulfilled and in the end ultimately lost.

    thank you for sharing your valuable time with all the people here, from every part of the world and unknown to you.

    go for life, lisa, until full remission.

    with love from germany
    elke]]>

  22. < ![CDATA[hey hey hey, Lisa, its REALLY REALLY GOOD! We are so PROUD OF YOU! Life is full of uncertainities, but at the end it would be alright. Take enough rest, and keep yourself well! :):):)

    I'm quite an emotional person and I easily get upset. But now I learn to smile. "Do not weep. Do not wax indignant. Understand" Spinoza said. Its so true!!!

    Never stop fighting, in every area in life.

    AND fight for the people in need. YES! I get it!

    Take good care! We love you Lisa!]]>

  23. < ![CDATA[Hello Ms. Sunshine Ray,

    Vermont sounds so lovely right now! We are still in the 100's here in sunny Arizona. It wouldn't be so bad if it cooled down at night....but, hey we are slowly getting there....I can't complain, cause the winters are Heaven!

    Isn't it interesting how life is? Seemingly, it is always filled with opposition. Why is that? Why is it that we truly can’t understand the experience of joy without first tasting of sorrow? Why does joy in the simple things of life…. seem much more exquisite after the deep reaching ache of sorrow? Why is it important to experience opposition or resistance? What does it all prepare us for?

    It is like when you get a brand new pair of shoes…..at first they are a bit snug and maybe even a bit uncomfortable, but with time and a little stretching here and a tug there…they start coming into their own. You really start to feel the form fitting comfort and can really strut in your stride thinking and feeling like the whole world wishes they could walk in your shoes…then Bam! Out of the blue your heel snaps off and you twist your ankle as you feel yourself falling in slow motion off the curb….not just any curb, ….but into a dirty muddy rain filled gutter….Just when you think that you are the cat’s meow…. The rules all change…

    All this made me think of the song, “What’s it all about Alfie?”

    What's it all about, Alfie?
    Is it just for the moment we live?
    What's it all about when you sort it out, Alfie?
    Are we meant to take more than we give
    Or are we meant to be kind?
    And if only fools are kind, Alfie,
    Then I guess it's wise to be cruel.
    And if life belongs only to the strong, Alfie,
    What will you lend on an old golden rule?
    As sure as I believe there's a heaven above, Alfie,
    I know there's something much more,
    Something even non-believers can believe in.
    I believe in love, Alfie.
    Without true love we just exist, Alfie.
    Until you find the love you've missed you're nothing, Alfie.
    When you walk let your heart lead the way
    And you'll find love any day, Alfie, Alfie
    would you tell me what's it all about?
    Whats this all about? What's it all about Alfie? Tell me
    what's it all about Alfie?

    I think you are right ….there isn’t such a thing as “too much love”….We pass through trials, pain and sorrow…so we can taste the sweetness of joy and light. We learn, “What its all about.” Love…Love and more Love…We would never understand and know the sweet without the bitter. Who would have thought, opposition… hum… truly a blessing in disguise.

    You are a unique soul on an delightful journey….Thanks for letting me tag along.

    Live Life, Laugh Often, Love Much,
    Ginger]]>

  24. < ![CDATA[p.s.

    maybe here are more people from the german speaking world and if lisa doesn't mind i put the website address of the "support-group consortium mm" in germany (APMM) here:

    http://www.myelom.org

    thank you.]]>

  25. < ![CDATA[Good morning everybody!

    Lisa, will you marry me?
    ... sorry I'm so silly today :) Just to wish you the best!

    Love,
    Paula]]>

  26. < ![CDATA[Hello,
    A little message to wish you a pleasant stay in Vermont and plenty of rest ...
    Thank you for your positive attitude! You are an example for all patients and their given you the strength to see further ...
    I send you all my energy!
    Kisses ...

    Ps: I come from France, I'm sorry but I do not speak English and I do not write .thank sites for translation ... I hope so!]]>

  27. < ![CDATA[Hi Lisa,
    hope you enjoy your trip into the retreat. It´s nice, that you share with us your aktivities :-).
    For me it´s a feeling of connecivity.
    Enjoy the time off chemo. Thinking of you. You´re great.
    Best wishes from germany.
    Andrea]]>

  28. < ![CDATA[Lisa –
    Hope you are energized from your sleep (trust your swollen left eye has been reduced somewhat and looking forward to a well-earned retreat @Vermont.

    Your blogs definitely inspire me to read avidly and devouring every nooks and crooks of cyberspace to research on MMC, each person/topics you introduce such as Joshua Bell and Laura Simms (regret to say I have not heard of them) but now that I have, it brings joy to my reading.

    Below are two quotes of courage by Bob Richards:

    1) Ingenuity, plus courage, plus work, equals miracles.
    2) You are what you think. You are what you go for. You are what you do!

    I like to think that these two quotes ‘speaks’ of you – your courage, your inner beauty and strength, your dedication in helping others and for being just YOU.

    Lisa - (you are ‘notti’ to quote Ali telling Tala in ICTS) – I say this in a LOVING manner becoz oyour posts not only make me laugh but I have this ‘cheshire’ grin on my face and my co-workers who are sitting very close by (like the next cubicle) keep asking why am I laughing (when I am suppose to be working or grinning like a ‘fool’ – rolling of eyes). Mind you, the only time I could have a chance to read your blogs/or comments is in between meetings or when I have a moment to breathe. But I am not complaining/and do not mind if my co-workers thinks I have gone bonkers because I have also got them ‘hooked’ on you and your blog; your quest to fight to FULL REMISSION and all of us agree that you are a “Woman of Substance” and we are now going around the office to sponsor your quest on the MM5K Walk :D :D :D :D :D... wish I could walk with you as well but alas I am too far away...never mind, I shall be there in ‘spirit’ and spur you on (as I am sure all the Yellow Diarists here.

    There are 3 things I love in life... food (Italian especially), music (mostly jazz and blues, classical or soft ballads) and plays (theatres) – every time I am in London/or New York – I will at least try to catch a play or two and my all time favourite is The Phantom of the Opera (starring Sarah Brightman)...without these little joys in my life, it would surely be dull for me...and of course, I have your blogs to look forward to.

    I am thrilled that you like Wong Kai Wai “In the Mood for Love” – I think his movies are very artistic, soulful and has in-depth atmospheric feel to it. His movies are one of the few that I will watch from time to time and my favourite was “Days of being Wild” – coz it kinda of remind me of myself (somewhat) – lol.

    You had joytear when you rec’d the latest report from Dr Galal – I have big smiling face; tears of joy in my heart and a silent prayer of thanks to the Lord for hearing our prayers...I am still counting the days til Dec when you finally tell us that are a full member of FR club.

    I think all Yellow Diarists would do a song and dance or even fireworks respectively at our own places all over the world...I know I am ready to pop a bottle of Dom Perignon in salute of such good news and celebrate your full health – its timely as well because it be a start of a new brand year for you and us.

    You deserve our love and admiration and I second Steel Trap’s parting words:-

    - ‘I love that you like being glued to us too!!! I, mean, we’re technically nobody’s ... trying their hand at being somebodys....” -

    it is because you first GLUED us to you that we are now ‘stuck’ stronger than any U-Hu Glue or whatever strong glue to you..... and “Lady” Ray - we ain’t going anyway)....we will follow you (if we can) lol.

    Golly, you are supposed to enjoy your R&R retreat in Vermont and yet you want to write to us!

    Maybe we all should have a consensus to let you off for a week during your time in Vermont and not worry about blogging (am ducking my head as I can see arrows shooting at me for this horrifying suggestion) but hey, we don’t want to stress Lisa out –right?

    Seriously though, its your decision if you wish to blog from Vermont (obviously we will be all eagerly waiting)...but do REST REST REST .

    Til the next time and before I go, may I dedicate this song to you... Helen Reddy’s “I am A Woman”....

    "I am woman, hear me roar
    In numbers too big to ignore
    And I know too much to go back an' pretend
    'cause I've heard it all before
    And I've been down there on the floor
    No one's ever gonna keep me down again

    CHORUS
    Oh yes I am wise
    But it's wisdom born of pain
    Yes, I've paid the price
    But look how much I gained
    If I have to, I can do anything
    I am strong (strong)
    I am invincible (invincible)
    I am woman

    You can bend but never break me
    'cause it only serves to make me
    More determined to achieve my final goal
    And I come back even stronger
    Not a novice any longer
    'cause you've deepened the conviction in my soul"

    Again, one of my favourites....coz every time I feel down, I will remind myself that I AM A WOMAN with invincible strength....
    Til then... take care,
    BB, BG, B Smiling Always & oh remember to smell the flowers when you in Vermont!

    MF

    Ps: sorry everyone for this long comment – but its TGIF - very relaxed and I like to think I write with 'soul' ... :D]]>

  29. < ![CDATA[Dear Lisa,

    I just can't wait till you finally get into the FR club. Each time you write that your almost there, I get real impatient. I am really glad to hear that you are going for a retreat. Take proper rest. Don't skip sleep. I know that you might sometimes just get tired of the medications you are on, but i just hope that all the LOVE we are sending to you, overshadows their side effects. You are always in my prayers. In the context of the stye (also know as External Hordeolum in medical jargon), the following should give you some relief.
    - You might have already been prescribed certain
    antibiotic eye drops and analgesics by your doctor.
    Continue his prescription.
    - In the initial stages, before a pus point is evident, Hot
    Compresses will help reduce the inflammation. You will
    need some lukewarm water and cotton. Wash you
    hands first. Dip the cotton into the water and apply it
    onto the stye. Hold it there for few seconds. Repeat 2-3
    times daily.
    - Once the pus point has become evident, the doctor
    usually epilates the involved eyelash to drain the pus.
    Hope you feel better soon. Once again, pleeeeeeeeease take care of yourself. I love you so much. God Bless. By the way, you have a million dollar smile. Keep smiling always.]]>

  30. < ![CDATA[Hi Lisa,

    Glad to know your results.

    Also there's more positiveness in your writing. I am happy.

    Take care & enjoy every moment as it comes.

    Best way is not to plan anything ...

    Be strong and inspire your fans for the right cause.

    Wishes from India.]]>

  31. < ![CDATA[Hi Lisa,

    I read your blog and I am amazed by your positive spirit.
    I have read a lot of information regarding natural treatments for cancers on several websites.

    1. http://www.naturalnews.com.
    There are several articles that say that if one goes on a totally organic and raw diet, the cancer will disappear in a few months.
    E.g. Consuming Beets is one alternative (See link
    http://www.naturalnews.com/027032_beets_cancer_tumors.html)

    2. Read this detailed article about cancer prevention/cure
    http://www.kalsschool.com/NewslettersAug09/tabid/252/Default.aspx#3_Garlic_and_Castor_oil

    Please check them and I am sure these will help you.

    Warm Regards,
    Rajani]]>

  32. < ![CDATA[hi lisa
    ru trying to gain publicity out of the blog...instead of writing and wasting ur time in the blog pray for urself....be more close t god....spend time with ur love ones...why are behind fame and publicity even at this stage....
    help poor people....be moreonsiderae to people...if u think its wth to consider the advice.....then take it]]>

  33. < ![CDATA[Lisa,

    I enjoy your inspirational blog, and how you are living life to the fullest regardless of what you're going through. You are strong and vibrant.

    Enjoy the loving company of the retreat, and if you are feeling unglued deep breath, slowly exhale, repeat until glue is sufficiently adhered.

    metta]]>

  34. < ![CDATA[Lisa, for your eye infection do compressions with warm water and lot of camomile. It always worked with me! :-)

    Love you!
    FORZA E CORAGGIO.. UNA BACIO DALL'ITALIA :-)]]>

  35. < ![CDATA[hey lisa how's the eye now? i mean eyes (i have this dry eye thing sometimes they get swollen they are fine now) music does the same thing for me too . LIsa it's 6:15 here ...i'm not feeling either (i think it's the weather change i don' know but the sky is still beautiful

    i have some money(it's not a lot) to donate and i will do that :) i promise

    let me go do that rite now

    OFF steroid good ...you enjoy girl:)

    and i like your dad :) he is cool ..i said this earliar but i'm saying that again:)]]>

  36. < ![CDATA[Lisa
    Yep, sure, what will be the world without music, art , food .....and perhaps wine in France you know we have a seconde religion"food and wine "and i admit that it's quite nice!!!!
    Wow, you're so lucky to saw josuha Bell this guy is fantastic i love when he plays Beethoven i remember my grandfather he was polish violinist i miss him now!
    It's nice to walk for princess Margaret Hospital, you know personnely i'm fascinate with bike and i'm biking beetween 150 and 200 km by week, bike is my life it's my drug!!!!!Shane Saunderson is really fantastic because i know it's quite difficult to do that i admire her a lot!!!!!!!!
    I hope your eyes will be better soon and i know there's a gleam in yours too!
    Kisses]]>

  37. < ![CDATA[RANI....

    Shame on you that you took the name of Lisa middle name "RANI" as your userid.

    Not sure what is your motive here...but if you are not a fan of Lisa and do not feel its WORTH to spend your time here...then DON'T.... You DON'T have to come here and write such stupid, insensitive remarks!

    I and the thousands of Yellow Diarists are here for a purpose - to shower our LOVE & SUPPORT for Lisa in her road to recovery from MMC.

    She does not have to take yours or anyone's advice as she know for herself what she want to do.

    I believe us fans here will not Tolerate such nonsense from someone who does not believe in Lisa and her kind and generous heart.

    So if you have nothing positive to say - 'DON'T' say anything, better still - you don't have to be here - go find other blogs & sprout your nonsense at them.

    Peace

    So let me]]>

  38. < ![CDATA[hi lisa,

    Almost FULL REMISSION
    Almost FULL REMISSION
    Almost FULL REMISSION

    that word makes me just happy!!!
    and i hope ur eyes will get better :)
    have a great time in your travelling.
    just eat and sleep well and be with great music!
    love u

    ps. plz posting ur pictures lot
    wanna see your smile face that always makes me happy:)]]>

  39. < ![CDATA[Rani, let's leave us alone and go away from here.
    What is your aim to write such things here? No, no, needless to answer. It is not your place.
    Do not hurt Lisa with any single insensitive word!
    You should rather look inside yourself and think over your sentences before sending such posts to a person who deserves support and love for her behaviour.
    Just for the records I am sure that all of us here loved and admired Lisa before starting her blog because of her roles and personality and this blog about her journey has strengthened the connection between us and her.
    We are here to encourage her to go along the road until full remission and want the best for her.
    It is so simple, everybody can decide about joining to the Yellow Diarists, it is not obligatory, it is all about love and sensitivity.]]>

  40. < ![CDATA[hi guys

    u have mistaken wht i have sent here...]]>

  41. < ![CDATA[Hi Lisa,
    "ristretto"? mmm... "ristretto"!!!!!
    I can understand one of your words!!! Yeah!! ;)
    I think that you haven't read my mail... it is not a problem, I keep on writing to you... sooner or later you will read, among the other messages, my words.
    when this will happen, forget my English... please!!!
    It is beautiful to see gleam in YOUR eyes (and also in the eyes of the doctor)!
    Have a good time in Vermont!!
    Con tutto l'affetto che posso.
    Chiara]]>

  42. < ![CDATA[Hey Lisa,
    Nice to hear about your FR.Enjoy you stay at Vermont and maybe we could share our stories someday.

    Keep Smiling & Take good care.]]>

  43. < ![CDATA[Enjoy your drug-free holiday!

    http://goodbloodbadblood.wordpress.com/>

  44. < ![CDATA[I bet you're gorgeous even with styes in your eyes :-)

    Have a wonderfully serene time in Vermont.

    Un abbraccio grosso grosso.]]>

  45. < ![CDATA[Habibti,

    Vermont and no drugs, yippee to that. Very happy to hear about your upbeat prognosis. Enjoy the hills, take a lot of pics and send some this way (to yellow diaries I mean). We look forward to your new posts which are indicative of your well being every way. We are greedy see, we want your full remission soon and getting back to work so we can watch you on-screen.

    take good care and love always
    ~Lisa]]>

  46. < ![CDATA[Rani,
    Look, she is not doing this for publicity. Please, read her blogs before jumping to such conclusions. Multiple Myeloma is not a joke. You have to be brave to admit it. And I believe that Lisa, being the fighter she is, is one of the few people who have the courage to do so. Lisa is a very selfless person. On October 18th, not caring about herself, she going to run 5K just for Myeloma foundation. Steriods and chemo are the last thing on earth one would want to be on. Believe me, i am a medical student and I have seen many patients go through a hell of a time because of them. Lisa is also doing a lot for the Empowerment of the girl child in Canada. She is doing so much, not for herself but for others. Please be sensitive to Lisa's feelings. She needs us right know. Pray for her. Read her blogs and understand her.]]>

  47. < ![CDATA[Lisa, you don't need to post this but don't go to places like Marineland. It is a terrible place of death for sentient marine animals. So many deaths there of whales and dolphins.. can you imagine life in one of those pools.. the stress and disease and misery
    Your illness needs to mean compassion for all or you're missing the point]]>

  48. < ![CDATA[Lisa,

    I read that your immune system is low... Chemo does that... but really when you are done chemo would you consider going to this Traditional Chinese Medicine Doc? What can you lose? She can help build your immune system so your own body can fight off this illness. She works with people who have or don't have insurance and as I have said a few times now... she is funny and can make you laugh and you need to laugh.... anyways I hope you read this or someone reads this close to you and maybe you decided to give her a go!.... anyway the info is here if you need it. And remember to take it easy on your walk good luck.. If i hadn't just lost my job we would donate.... if we win the lotto though I guess I would have to buy a ticket for that and can't but anyway if we can we will until then I post your link on my facebook account and maybe my friends will help out

    cheers,
    Viviana]]>

  49. < ![CDATA[Almost FULL REMISSION!!
    Well done!

    hope we'll hearing better from you at/after Vermont.

    as to the 5Km, I'm sure it's kinda of warm up to some people but definitely NOT me, I may need 4hrs to do so.... haha.

    Run for MM, Run for the world!

    be safe&happy

    Love from Taiwan
    Irene]]>

  50. < ![CDATA[Nairong
    Got you here....
    thought you're missing...haha!]]>

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