Lisa Ray

The Yellow Diaries

I wish me a long remission…

And now for a public service announcement:

Let’s make Myeloma Matter…

And a cancer carol…

I wish you a long re-mission, I wish you a long re-mission…

I wish ME a long re-mission

And a Happy, New Life.

I got trained in ‘key messaging’ before filming a PSA for Myeloma Canada on Thursday. As in: what do I want people to hear?

Or as Kissinger put it:

Do you have any questions for my answers?

Why am I here?

To Make Myeloma Matter…

Why?

Because I have to remember…its not over yet. Because autumn frost follows the abundance of summer. Because the Jacaranda flowers unblossom and carpet the ground before I can commit them to memory.

Because everything changes. From worse to better. Better to…

Relapse?

While I worked to find the right tone for the 30 second spot, the Benny Hill theme ran through my head: Yakety Sax. Sandra, my makeup girl had played me a youtube snippet with the insidious tune in the green room and the damn music got lodged in my cranium.

Yakety Sax. Look it up.

Incongruous? Maybe. But not entirely inappropriate for the message I was trying to deliver.

Make Myeloma Matter. Quickly please!

John, one of the co-founders of Myeloma Canada, sat behind the monitor. Occassionally he leaned over to the director to offer an opinion on one of the takes. I didn’t speak to him until we took a break and he walked up to me to share his story.

I want you to know I’m a 12 year survivor.

And after I was first diagnosed, there weren’t many of us around.

He meant survivors. Of 10 years or more.

Whoa.

I feel so good now, it’s like it never happened. But that doesn’t mean it never happened.

I have to remember. Because right now, I simply feel like it never happened. I’ve been back to the business of living. Schedules and opportunities. Fielding phone calls and making plans. Stepping out, wearing snugly cut clothes. Posing for the camera…again.

Finding love…

Falling in love…

Yes, I have fallen in love with a man who understands. And who inspires me to be better and to make it all matter…

And he’s the list.

More on the ‘Raja’ later.

Not two months ago, I bought a home in Nelson and planned my retirement.

Now here’s what I’ve been up to

At the beginning of September I flew out to Mumbai to inaugurate the Fortis Cancer Institute, a one stop, comprehensive care facility. Cultural observers will be happy to note that the C- word unanimously inspires dread across the world.

Malvinder and Shivinder Singh, the driving forces behind the Fortis Group of Hospitals are inspired to overhaul the approach towards Cancer Care in India.

Oh yeah.

We also announced the Lisa Ray Fortis, Spirit of Life Award for Cancer Conquerors

Hopefully much more on that later…

I’m pleased to report the fashion commentary on my appearance at this event was mostly positive. Except for my shoes it seems my outfit passed muster.

Incongruous…yes

Making Myeloma sexy? Trying…

Celebrating my ‘graduation’

My Raja, the man who cradles my heart with tenderness and an undeniable sense of belonging, introduced me to this idea…

We are graduates, he tells me. Graduates of the Cancer programme…

And yes. He’s a graduate too.

While I was in India I shot for Elle Magazine with my friend Farrokh, iconic Indian photographer, who has never met a dwarf he doesn’t like and who has a passion for aviation, though he doesn’t like to leave the ground. Farrokh and I have known each other for twenty plus years, and when I was in India weeks after my stem cell, he inadvertently became my primary care giver and wrangler. One day he escorted me from Jaslok hospital, bandaged and step-tripping after an operation to excise the nasty crop of cysts on my eyelids known as chalazion which were another fallout from chemo and soon afterwards, he took pictures. Restored to sight, and he recorded the moment. A gesture which was both compassionate and enpowering for me.

So its only fitting that the images he captured of me in early September will make the cover of the magazine. I am proud of the images. Are they about Cancer? No. They are about celebrating my graduation.

Thank you Nonita for lobbying to put images of an almost 40 year old graduate on the cover of a beauty magazine.

And…

I will be speaking at an Evening Celebrating Science for the McEwan Centre for Regenerative Medicine on September 23rd in Toronto.

Basically, taking stem cell talk out of the lab, onto the streets.

Taking the miracle, the promise out on the streets.

Why?

Without stem cell research, I would not be here.

And if you saw what I did, in the labs, through the microscope, you’d feel like using both hands to scoop those secrets out into the world

I’m just saying…

So I’m feeling fine. I’m drug free, out of choice and because there’s no conclusive compelling evidence to prove that remaining on ‘maintenance therapy’ will prolong my remission.

I’ll do that on my own.

Well, not entirely on my own.

With my Raja.

And you.

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  1. Parul

     /  September 20, 2010

    Lisa,

    So happy to hear that you are in love and doing great. Keep fighting:)
    Love Always,

    Parul

  2. wow Lisa:
    Glad you come back
    You can become an excellent graduates
    I believe……Keep fighting…

    Nikki
    Beijing time:AM 9:06 September 21

  3. MEL from Argentina

     /  September 20, 2010

    YOUR WORDS ARE SO BEAUTIFULL
    LIKE YOU

    TE AMO REINA!

  4. Avinash

     /  September 20, 2010

    Hi Lisa,
    good to hear and I too wish you a long re-mission. Lately, after i got to know you are a cancer conqueror, have been reading your blog. Its really amazing that you have explained your experiences so neatly. I really appreciated it. My father is also a caner patient (CML) and is undergoing treatment since 2003.
    But recently (about a year ago) the disease has increased and he is going through bad weather. The medical expenses have shoot up like anything. I think he feels as burden to me and is loosing hopes. I don’t know how to rejuvenate him.
    Kindly advice.

    Lastly, I have to mention, have been watching you since Garden Vareli ads. You are so beautiful, especially your eyes. I am your fan since then

    Avinash
    Regards

  5. YOU are a beautiful and powerful story of hope, courage and survival .. thank you for sharing it with all of us! you’ve made room for myeloma to matter in countless hearts all over the planet, who might not have ever known about it otherwise — if not for your making it matter.

    i wish you and your new secretagent love the longest of remissions** and congratulations to you on all of the joy you’ve found and are living. happy graduation! and happy newness. and happy autonomous nurturing .. this is turning into a toast.. so slainte! may you and your ever long remission be like milk and honey and may your feeling good be an omen as welcome as the moon in a clear blue sky ..

  6. bpg711

     /  September 20, 2010

    I’m happy that you’re finally back to the business of living–as you’ve put it. It’s weird since I don’t personally know you, but your words have made such an impact in my life. I’ve been battling fatigue, body aches, and other symptoms for a while now… Just like you, before your MM diagnosis, I just want to know what’s wrong with me. Been through several tests, but nothing would explain the cause of my pain. Made a progress today– finally got something out of my MD after a procedure yesterday. Although what he told me is not a definitive diagnosis, just knowing the cause of my symptoms somewhat sheds light. I’m still awaiting further evaluation. Having a background in the medical field, the news today tells me that admittance in the C-club is lurking around. I’m expecting the worse, but hoping for a better outcome…and while I’m processing all these, your story inspires me to look for my inner strength…to live, to fight, to love, and to find purpose…

  7. Anne Marie

     /  September 20, 2010

    Nice! So happy to hear you are doing well, are happy in love, and that you have such good things to be about in the coming days, weeks, months. Love the “Because I Am A Girl” campaign you are taking part in and supporting. As the Dalai Lama says, “As long as we observe love for others and respect for their rights and dignity in our daily lives, then whether we are learned or unlearned, whether we believe in the Buddha or God, follow some religion or none at all, as long as we have compassion for others and conduct ourselves with restraint out of a sense of responsibility, there is no doubt we will be happy”. It sounds as if you have found some measure of this happiness in your work, life and in love… :)

  8. I am very happy to know that you’re well and leading normal life, and infecting everyone with their campaigns Myeloma, I’m even happier with the Sept. 23, where he will make a great event and know that you’re running this world of my GOD making more people look for cancer in all directions; have to give you my congratulations for everything you have done and believe it will continue to do so much more.The happier you are in love, LOVE also works miracles in our lives intensely vidas.Querida minutes each day and according to what we are allowed, and spreading your experience the best of Dr. possivel.beijos loving Luzimar (Brazil)

  9. Nika

     /  September 20, 2010

    This huge happiness to know that you recover and in All of you, it becomes better. Thanks for your work!

    With best regards from Russia

  10. First: WELCOME Back Gorgeous!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Second: Yes I saw there was new “couple.s news” concerning you.
    Now if I may vent. I remember telling you that Paolo wasn’t good enough for you the moment you mentioned his distancing himself (You called him upset and his 1st response was: “What did I do?”) Could he have been anymore self absorbed?
    I had a partner and we also broke up but it occurred 10 years AFTER my initial diagnosis and my living with catastrophic illness wasn’t the cause.
    Besides “she” and I continue to be active in each others life.
    I guess women are more evolved than a lot of guys.

    MAINTENANCE THERAPY
    You are absolutely right about the “maintenance therapy” there is no conclusive proof and believe me Ms. Ray I have been doing a lot of reading on the subject and further proof about my ex being involved in my life, well she has taken an interest in my concern over your well being (I mean as much as I can be concerned about a stranger without causing you undue stress and concern) and she updates me on developments that come her way. Like when she discovered that her co-worker’s mom also has MM and has had it for over 16 years! although I have to ask her to find out if the woman is on maintenance therapy.

    We miss you. please don’t be a stranger.

  11. ANAMSERRA

     /  September 20, 2010

    LISA wow!, it’s great to Have A notice about you, your love and your happiness.
    Many people who have MM have already entered into your blog, and have written really moving stories. The point is that you’ve helped them live again and give meaning to their lives …
    That the most important think you made, is your inspiring ideas, your example, to understand that if you can if you struggle and persevere.
    And from my point of view, dear Liza you’ve achieved that this blog becomes one of your best work.
    life is simple … as love is in action
    regards

  12. Marie

     /  September 20, 2010

    Lisaraniray, Lisitaa, tala, Talitaa, Habibti, beautiful Princess:

    todas tus fans de “Yellow diaries” estabamos aqui esperandote a que regresaras con nosotros, ya te extrañabamos mucho,…. aunque eres para nosotros alguien intangible, pero real.
    hace un año que iniciaste tu blog, compartiendo con nosotros tu vida, momentos dificiles y tristes, pero con gran entusuiasmo de salir adelante,…haz sido un gran ejemplo de entusiamo e isnpiración para las personas que nos hemos identificado contigo,…

    Ahora en día tienes nuevos proyectos de gran significado humano,que han tocado a tu vida, Dios te dió ese angel, que llevas dentro para inspirar y llevar esperanza de alivio a las personas con MM.

    por ahi escuche alguna vez, lo siguiente…

    ” Nadie será recordado por sus pensamientos secretos, ni por lo que quiso decir y hacer sin haberlo dicho y sin haberlo hecho. Tú valdrás por tu acción pero sólo cuando por tus acciones persigas una causa importante. Ésa será una excelente razón de trascender en tu vida, y en la vida de los demás”

    Y es exactamente, lo que tu estas haciendo, al mecionarnos que el Amor, no es un sentimiento, que mas bien es una Acción.,……Spirit of Life Award for Cancer Conquerors.

    ——————

    Lisita,… sigue adelante mi Amor,. recuerda, “never stop fighting”

    Siempre estaré contigo.

    Sonríe !!

    Te quieroooooooooooooo

  13. Ola

     /  September 21, 2010

    Hej Lisa!

    Nie wiem na ile dobrze mówisz po polsku, ale doszłam do wniosku, że łatwiej będzie mi wyrazić co chcę przekazać w moim ojczystym języku ;)
    Po raz pierwszy weszłam na Twojego bloga wczoraj, gdy usłyszałam/zobaczyłam w jednym z wywiadów czym się obecnie zajmujesz i co się działo z Tobą w ciągu zeszłego roku.
    Jakiś czas temu mój indyjski przyjaciel powiedział mi o Tobie i odkąd widziałam Ciebie w paru filmach, prawdziwie urzekłaś mnie swoim pięknem. Głównie zewnętrznym. Teraz także wiem lepiej co się kryje za zewnętrzną skorupką wspaniałości.
    Naprawdę jestem bardzo poruszona i zainspirowana opowieściami z Twojego życia, które tutaj opisujesz. Gratuluję pozytywnego ducha i siły w takich okolicznościach.
    Jestem bardziej niż pewna, że poruszyłaś bardzo dużo ludzi na całym świecie, którzy walczą lub chcą walczyć, ale nie mają już siły.. Nie przestawaj! Niech miłość, którą odkrywasz w swoim życiu będzie promieniowała wszędzie naokoło Ciebie!
    Pozdrowienia z Polski. Tysiąc całusów.

    Now I will put it also in english.

    I entered your blog yesterday for first time, as I heard what are you up to on one of the interviews on youtube. Some time ago my indian friend told me about you and since then I have seen you in two movies I became genuinely impressed by your general beauty.. Now I also know more what is hidden behind this outside shell of gorgeousness.
    I was really moved and inspired by the stories from your life you have been describing for a while here. Congratulations on your positive spirit, in that kind of circumstances. I’m more than sure you had inspired lot of people all around the world that are fighting or wants to fight, but lost their power…Keep on going, Bella! Let the love in your life you discovered be spread all around you.
    Greetings from Poland. Lots of kisses.

    Ola

    “It is worth remembering that the time of greatest gain in terms of wisdom and inner strength is often that of greatest difficulty.” [Dalai Lama]

  14. sunita

     /  September 21, 2010

    Lisa,
    Congrats on your remission and on finding love. Enjoy your movies and waiting to read your soon to be published book.

    Yellow Diary Fan

  15. Lisa, the last photo is too cute ~ ~ ~ I like it~ ~ ~
    We will always support you ~ ~ ~ ~
    Hope to hear more news about your health and happiness~~~~

    And, now I’m drawing a lot of photos you want to draw ~ ~ ~ all made of a booklet and hope that one day you can see ~ ~ ~
    Lisa you know,
    Because of you, let me once again of the love paint ~ ~ ~
    Because of you, let me strengthen their own way to go ~ ~ ~
    A designer, artist
    From China ~ ~ ~ ~ LF

  16. Traci

     /  September 21, 2010

    Almost 40 & absolutely gorgeous, Lisa.

    And I’m so happy to hear you’re feeling good & in love! He sounds really wonderful.

    Keep spreading your loveliness. It’s very inspiring in many ways.

    Traci

  17. kavya

     /  September 21, 2010

    Hi Lisa…!
    Congrats for u have found ur true love and best of luck for ur future life.
    I feel ur this life is a “punar-avatar” by the Lord. Loved u always.
    KEEP FIGHTING:-)
    From India

  18. Terri

     /  September 21, 2010

    You are an amazing woman!! An inspiration to us all.

  19. Irene

     /  September 21, 2010

    Hey, Shiny Ray of Light! ;-)

    Lisa… We missed you here SO much and it’s so wonderful just to know that you keep on smiling, that your life is full of something warm and inspiring… I printed all the pages of your blog and reread them again and again in my journey in the train, at the seaside and everywhere and it made me so comfortable, so warm. It felt like home and your «SIMPLY BE» sounds in my head all the time like mantra or something… So glad you found Someone who can take care of You!!! New life, new love, new roads and new horizons for mind and soul… )

    P.S. And we’ll continue to send our mental messages to the Universe for make it all easier, better, warmer for You…

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    With all my heart
    Irene, Russia

  20. Dear Lisa!
    Pray for you every day… Thank you for being with us, we are always with you. Be happy and healthy. From Russia with Love :)

  21. Jodi - Atlanta

     /  September 21, 2010

    WOW…awesome news from an extraordinary courageous woman. I wish you much love and happiness.

    Lookout World, Lisa is unstoppable!

  22. roslind

     /  September 21, 2010

    Dear Lisa,
    Glad to hear from you again,every after 2 months! ^^ will always pray for you,
    long remission you are on the way toward there! keep faith you can do that!

  23. Life is Beautiful

     /  September 21, 2010

    Hi,

    I was waiting for you to say something, to share something and I am glad to see you here again! Happy Remission! God Bless you always!
    I am younger than you but I love giving blessings because these just tell your feelings and how much you wish for that person!
    I am happy for you, your man! May he be the best for you! Its very fortunate to find the right man! God is really happy with you- for being a fighter, an inspiration and showing path to people that now HE wants best for you!
    You are truely an inspiration and your fight inspires me even more everytime I read your yellow diaries again and again. My very high eosiniphils cause some problem to my doctor because he has to think a little harder, but my concern is just my kids. I am strong for myself and you have helped in every way, but its only one place where I fall weak–about my kids!!! Where do I gather that courage! Only if you could read and……
    You know what, in one of your web-chat or mail, something like that, there one of your fan who wanted to donate his bone marrow to you and do anything for you and I really loved it when you wrote that if he wants to do anything then go and donate in Hospital in india and people will benefit…..
    Now, each and every possible part that I can is donating for others to benefit after me but I really really loved that! I mean then I didnt even know about myself! Again, showing a path…..

    God Bless you now and always!!!

  24. Cherie from the Philippines

     /  September 21, 2010

    Hi, Lisa.

    Glad to have you back! and I’m happy that you’re doing well… and in love!!! take care always.

  25. Satwati

     /  September 21, 2010

    Dear Lisa,
    I am really glad to know that you are fully fine now! Its good to know that u r back to your normal life. That u have found a love in your life who supports u n cares for u… its great! Wish u luck…
    Stay Happy…
    Keep smiling!

    God bless u!

    P.S. I Love You.

  26. Hello again sweet one. I want to discuss “Exceptionalism” with you. Not the type of “Exceptionalism” evident in closed minded American jingo-istic rantings that no one can beat America. I am referring to the exceptionalism that is relevant to survival in living with Multiple Myeloma.
    10 years is the low ended of survival rates now-a-days for the fortunate. You should aim higher. What I a trying to say in that when I was diagnsed with a catastrophic illness I still think that I will live a long life and you should also because for me it’s going on 23 years.

    I used to send you links to my blog and my website where I had posted interviews of individuals who had been living with MM for 17 years and up.

    When I viewed my visitor map I was under the impression that you actually paid attention and read those postings (which were very inspiring and informative) but maybe it was another blog follower from Toronto. In any case live your life and never put an expiration date on yourself.

  27. Roksana

     /  September 21, 2010

    I’m happy you’re doing good!

    Take care and lot’s of love!

  28. erica

     /  September 21, 2010

    everytime i read what she writes and how she writes, i feel tears go to my eyes. aaand…there it goes an italian tear, right on my laptop :’)

  29. Couco

     /  September 21, 2010

    Thank you for your new post ,has been a wonderful surprise this morning to start work .

    I glad to read that you feel fine and you have a new enthusiasm for life.Life can be wonderful ;we must not forget. Congratulations for your new house, your new love, your new projects, and of course for your remission (nice carol, I try to remember at Christmas..) and your graduation. You are very generous for sharing with all of us. It seems like you are more in peace with yourself. Wonderful and inspiring. Thank you.

    So my wish for your is: Keep on smiling, keep on trusting , keep on being happy.

    Ciao bella and thank you again. Write soon, please.

  30. Magdalena

     /  September 21, 2010

    Droga Liso,
    wspaniale czytać dobre wieści :) tak mało ich na świecie. Czekałam na nowe wpisy na Twoim blogu. Mam nadzieję, że choroba pozostanie już tylko wspomnieniem a Ty codziennie będziesz miała powód do radości i uśmiechu.
    Jesteś niesamowitą osobą, piękną i pełną dobra. Masz w sobie więcej życia niż ktokolwiek na świecie. Jesteś inspiracją dla swoich fanów i gwiazdą na niebie. Największym marzeniem mojego życia jest spotkać Cię kiedyś, bo poznać taką osobę to coś nadzwyczajnego.
    Już samo patrzenie na Twoje zdjęcia daje chęć do życia a gdyby tak sięgnąć po największe marzenie i spotkać Cię na swojej drodze…. – tak marzycielka ze mnie.
    Liso, bądź szczęśliwa, uśmiechaj się do świata – bo świat kocha Twój uśmiech, uśmiechaj się do życia, bo życie kocha Ciebie i uśmiechaj się do takich jak ja, bo tacy jak ja kochają Twój uśmiech :)
    Mam nadzieję, że spełnisz w życiu jeszcze nie jedno swoje marzenie a każdy następny poranek przyniesie Ci tylko ciepło promieni słońca.

    Mocno całuję. Twoja Magdalena.

    ps. Będę marzyć by kiedyś Cię poznać @->–

  31. venky

     /  September 21, 2010

    very very happy for u dear…now u can start ur own NGO on educatin people how to conquer cancer n how to be concious..i have lost three people in my family kaus they cudnt be cured…

    best wishes for a bright future…

    love n peace
    venky

  32. Bibiana Muñoz from Panama city.

     /  September 21, 2010

    Back to the business of living… In Love… Uhmm… JUST GREAT! I wish you a long, long remission… And the same wish, to all the others readers graduates too.

    HEY EVERYBODY!
    HAPPY INTENATIONAL PEACE DAY! AND…
    LET´S MAKE MYELOMA MATTER!

  33. Anne from Houston

     /  September 21, 2010

    Hi Lisa,

    Glad to see that you are finding your life rhythm again and also best of luck with you new amore!

    Anne

  34. FingerLakes Tourist

     /  September 21, 2010

    Babe, plenty happy to read about all the new developments. You are doing lots of commendable work. And you are looking sooo stunning, last pic with hand horns, ooo la la. Hmmm, I think I’ll miss bobcat, but what the hey, who needs a cat when you have the king.

    We miss you when you are not here babygal. So, you can be rest assured we are here with you for the long haul. And remember Raja hameshaa Rani ki hi hota hai. Love you sweetie. tc

  35. Ms. Ray,
    Your blog is as exceptional as ever. I am eagerly awaiting your book. I hope that is still in the hopper. There is something very soothing about the flow of your words. They remind me of a gently flowing brook. Today, I require soothing. I am glad to hear that life is moving on for you. Cancer hasn’t defined you, but has only refined you. The way you have created a new life, out of what could have been only ashes has been an inspiration. Best wishes for your continued success. I wish you a long Re-Mission, I wish you a long Re-Mission…
    M Doan

  36. deborahaustin

     /  September 21, 2010

    nice. So glad to hear you are doing well and have found someone to share in your journey.

  37. Anie

     /  September 21, 2010

    Maybe it’s a coincidence or maybe the universe hinted me during a lecture about MM I had today to visit your blog. I was so surprised and happy to see you’ve posted. Glad to know that you’re doing fine and found love.

    I was so excited to hear about the developments of the treatments for MM my professors were talking about. It gave me so much hope. So yeah! I have no doubt that you too will be a survivor of 10 years or even more!

    ‘I wish you a long re-mission, I wish you a long re-mission, I wish you a long re-mission
    And a Happy, New Life.’

    =)

  38. Amy

     /  September 21, 2010

    Really great to see you are pursuing an unaltered life after a life altering experience. Tho it may sound odd, I believe that it is those who have survived these experiences who have the ability live and experience life to its fullest. Part of one’s of recovery is taking time to recalibrate the joining / balancing of who you were before and who you are now and understanding where the lines of being too careful or too careless meet.

    Regardless, the world keeps spinning and we have the choice of helping it turn, or going along for the ride. Glad to see you’re helping steer things in the right direction!

  39. NoIvory

     /  September 21, 2010

    In one interview I heard you say that the person we fall in love with “inspires” us. I nodded “yes”. And applied it. And that exercise made me “see”. But I didn’t see my partner. Strangely I was inspired to go deep within (Kundalini for all!) and that’s been a great home coming. Because it’s truest. And my reflection pushed me up higher to my true self. Thank you for that inspiration. And thank you so much for your G&L advocacy. I hope the tenderness you’ve received flowers out and fills your tree to full bloom.

  40. you’re happy… makes my heart smile :)

  41. Maureen

     /  September 21, 2010

    Good to see you back and what you are up to in your always forward movement.

    Making ready the benefit screenings of ICTS and TWU here in Anchorage. Thinking of you. Many asking after you.

    Best,
    Maureen

  42. Bam

     /  September 22, 2010

    Lisa
    You’ve come soo far. No longer just the Bollywood/Hollywood icon but you’re message and energy are reaching the world in ways you may have not anticipated. And the world finds you more irresistable now. Alas it seems someone has capture your heart and placed the proverbial Ball and Chain which is always great as long as you don’t go swimming in Water. I’ve been trying to identify the attributes of the ideal woman and the want ad that always comes up in my head is “Seeking Fear-less woman.” There’s nothing sexier than that no matter how you dress her up (or down). But I think I can be too pie in the sky about relationships, I need to work more on being a wining/dining/Flowerman. It might be the only thing that will make some sense of my Quarter Life Crisis. Its a good thing I’m just A Stone’s Throw from some good social venues for meeting women with varied interests. Unfortunately a lot of them are intimidated by men who aren’t All Hat. Then again it might be because the other men rely on their cattle too much as an easy pass to The World Unseen. But there is no easy pass. The one track “Kill Kill Faster Faster” approach is always doomed to fail and usually ends with drunkenness and asking Why Can’t I Think Straight ? But you probably know what I’m talking about, I’m sure you could regale me with several Toronto Stories of such doomed suitors. Ugh this is hard, I’m really battling Somnolence as I write this but I will continue. I hope this new beau will be the guardian and Defendor of your heart. May you always find him Cooking With Stella..Cadenze Olive oil that is from the fair hills of Palermo California. So Let The Game Begin! This wonderful dance of life. I’ll sign off for now, my dog Krach needs attention. She’s giving birth to puppies and so far she’s averaging 1 a Minute.

  43. erica

     /  September 22, 2010

    i like you to talk about stem cells. i never understood why there is always controversy about this matter. we potentially could all heal with stem cells, but no one really helps the research. especially here in italy, this stupid country. we have the pope here. pope says stemm cells are no good, they are evil, they are uhm sin? and he stops the research. cos you know, here in italy every decision isn’t taken by the government, it’s taken by the pope. but i’m sure that if the pope gets a cancer, he will benefit of the reasearch he is forbidding to us. vatican forbids to people and benefits of what they call sin. not that nice, not really.
    vatican deprives us of our freedom too. i’m gay and i can’t be. but ‘religious’ people are 90% gays and they can be!!! this sucks. you can imagine what the rest 10% of ‘religious’ enjoy…read the news, you’ll know about it.
    untill it’s about private life i can bear it, i can bear not to be free. but when it comes to health, well no, i don’t accept them to oppose, deny or forbid in the name of a morality they don’t really have.

    you made me know about myeloma, i’m just one more person who knows about it. and so… myeloma matters!

  44. erica

     /  September 22, 2010

    if
    x= Lisa Ray+ Lisa Ray supporters
    and
    y= pope+pope supporters
    then
    the inequality for a better world must be like this to me:
    x>y

  45. Lisa:
    Tomorrow I will have puppy!I’m very happy!An American cocker spaniels!
    Aha!Happy Together…

    Nikki
    pm9:50 September 22, 2010

  46. FingerLakes Tourist

     /  September 22, 2010

    Hope your “Because I am girl” campaign is a big success tomm and time to come. Hope you are secure and happy in W.BW ;) company. Long live the queen (Rani) and the Raja. :) Luv

  47. Donetta

     /  September 22, 2010

    Nice to know that you are sharing your beautiful soul all over the world. May your life continue to be all that you want it to be. I can across a quote that made me think of you by Martin Luther King Jr. “Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter.” Silent you are not, thinks for sharing your journey.

  48. lota

     /  September 22, 2010

    hello,

    well, i think we are all in remission with or without cancer. when & how we never know it’s like following a path. we are all in pursuit of happiness everyday in our lifetime [smile].

    you know, you are a brilliant storyteller & very reflective too. keep up.

    we might not comprehend deeply what you really into the internal struggles, the collateral damages & all. people fell in love in the fictional character you once lived but perhaps fleeting. am not an avid fan but i must say reading your blog is like renewing life’s purpose. thank you.

    live… fell in love with life… & with raja.

  49. FingerLakes Tourist

     /  September 22, 2010

    yayyyy… so, you did reveal your king ;) . I think you’ve found your match in him. He definetly seems to be quite an awesome guy. You two together are sure to change this world. tc beautiful!

  50. you are such an inspiration. although i can’t honestly say that i’ve met you, i still consider you a dear friend and i wonder how you’ve been and what you’ve been up to and when times are ‘tough’ you pull me through because i know you’d never give up. We have a saying here in Hawaii “Eddie Would Go” which stems from Eddie Aikau the famous surfer who would charge waves as high as the sky. As you have taken on unimaginable feats, I always think “Lisa Would Go” :D in a nutshell, you make me happier than i’ve ever been able to fathom. Keep fighting the good fight Lisa. We all love you so very much.

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