Lisa Ray

The Yellow Diaries

Make MM Matter: Scrapbook of a Cancer Graduate

I wish me a long remission…

And now for a public service announcement:
Let’s make Myeloma Matter…
And a cancer carol…
I wish you a long re-mission, I wish you a long re-mission…
I wish ME a long re-mission
And a Happy, New Life.
I got trained in ‘key messaging’ before filming a PSA for Myeloma Canada on Thursday. As in: what do I want people to [...]


I went away to Nelson BC.
There is something lyrical about heading west. Freedom-seeking. With or without a wagon containing all your worldly possessions.
I love the mountains for how they free me of excess. Words, for instance. The ones in my head and otherwise. In Nelson I stayed with my friends Rose and Michael who are [...]

Harakiri and hot flashes and RIP Dennis Hopper

My laptop commit harakiri
It was the most amazingly prosaic swan dive from the second floor. One moment the device was in my hands, then I heard the impact as it landed, squarely, one floor below.
A gap.
And then:
‘I guess it’s time to purge’
When the boy genius Apple employee looked grim, it only confirmed what I felt [...]

Battle Fatigue

Battle Fatigue
I’m not sure about the symptoms. But I’m a girl with hunches.
Maybe I feel distressed because I’ve been lying in the lap of darkness. Leaving that place takes a lot of yellow. Maybe I’m muddled because I made a contract to save my life. Now, I’m surrounded by debris and questions: What next? Next, [...]